7. My fear of death

Everyone dies, that’s why I am afraid of it, you can not dodge death, no matter what you do you will die one day. I am afraid of death, it is my biggest fear, I don’t know what happens when someone dies, is everything black, or do you just dream the whole time. My fear of death is maybe caused by the unknown, no one can tell you what death is like, if someone did I would get scared even more. Death kept making me think about life when I was a kid, I kept thinking to myself if there is even a thing so called “life” or have I died in the past and this present life of mine was all just a dream. The scariest thing about death to me is the beliefs, that there is heaven and hell, I can never think of myself being in hell that is just too scary for me. 

 Beliefs are the things that should always be there in life because if you think there is no god, and there is, you will go to hell; but if you do believe that there is a god, then you would go to heaven; and if you think there is a god, but there isn’t , it is ok at least you had faith on something, and I think that will be the biggest life lesson about life, to believe and have faith. I don’t know why I was afraid of the dead while growing up, maybe because I feel like they would just awaken, but I shouldn’t really be afraid of that they are already resting. I believe now to be afraid of the living, not the dead because the living people are the ones who can hurt you the most or even end up kill you, and I really don’t want to die, so now I am afraid of human beings. Just kidding, but yes I am still very afraid to die.

6. League of Legends

League of legends is a game I like playing just because it is a very fun ,exciting, popular, clean game to play. League of legends has been declared as a sport and thus making a lot of people athletes when it comes to the law. This kind of strategy, roleplaying, arena games are all the hype in a lot of countries especially America, Europe , and asia.

 League of legends or in other words lol has a very easy mechanics to it, the characters in the game are called champions, and there are two types of champions there is the ranged champions and there is the melee champions, the ranged champions have long range that’s why they are called ranged champions, and then there is what you call as melee heroes who fight in close combat. 

There is also this thing in lol called abilities and summoner spells, the abilities are given depending on the champion you chose, while the summoner spells are given for free and don’t cost any type of mana to use. There is also something called hit points which can be called hp. Mana , energy ,are the ones used to cast your abilities while some champions don’t have/ need mana to use their abilities, and some have unique bars depending on the champion.

 The roles in this game is simple, there is a solo top laner which is usually a tanky champion or any type of champion you desire, then there is this so called mid laner usually played as an ap champ or any assassin, then there is the attack damage carry in the bottom lane, along side the support of the team, they are in charge of bottom lane. The support helps the team by assisting them in kills or survival but its main role is to help the attack damage carry get stronger and carry the team, then there is the jungler who helps out other lanes from ganks and give teammates kills.

5. My top 3 Sneakers of all time

1.       Jordan 6 - my favorite shoe of all time is the Jordan 6 just because while growing up I used to watch an anime called Slamdunk, and the main character’s shoe was a Jordan 6, today I have a pair of my own and I would clean it every time after I use it to preserve its sole from yellowing. This shoe has been my favorite shoe since I was a kid  and now that I have it I will try my hardest to not destroy it or make it smell bad. The Jordan 6 is the shoe that Jordan has when he first won a championship, truly making the Jordan 6 an iconic sneaker and a huge part of sneaker history

2.       Jordan 1 – this shoe is one of the most iconic and simple Jordan shoes due to the fact that it looks and feels retro, this shoe is super flexible to whatever you are going to wear, choose whatever you want for your pants or shirt, this shoe can fit it well thus making it one of my favorite shoes. The Jordan 1 was called an iconic shoe due to the fact that this single sneaker started the era of a legend, and a sneaker company of its own.

3.       3. Jordan 8 – the Jordan 8 is one of the more bulkier shoes in the Jordan sneaker industry, but it is a really good performance basketball shoe due to the fact that it has superb ankle support and cushioning for our feet. Though this shoe is super hot to wear it is still a pretty dope shoe to wear and it really stands out when worn. The Jordan 8 resembles the elephant foot which simply states to the people that Jordan was into the more powerful side of business and was protecting his health during the time. 

4. My experiences with girls

        My personal experiences with girls are nothing out of the ordinary, because I never had any kind of special relationships yet. I am usually called by my classmates during high school as “torpe”, due to the fact that I can not tell a girl I like that I like her, and we will usually end up as “just” friends, or in other words I usually get stuck in the friend zone. The friend zone is the worst place to be if you have a huge crush on a girl, but she may or may not like you back and you did not tell her how you feel, then afterwards she gets a boyfriend, which makes you just a friend to her and become totally out of her dating radar. Ok enough said about my past experiences with the friend zone, today I would like to consider myself as a super shy type to women. I can not ask a girl for her name or number, because I usually degrade myself, due to my low self esteem when it comes to girls. I have this mentality that keeps telling me that I am out of a girl’s league, which is something I should really lose.

       People keep telling me that confidence and attitude is the key to a woman’s heart, which is something hard for me to do because girls nowadays really like bad boys, they find bad boys to be exciting and fun that’s why they fall in love with those type of guys. I am a huge turn off to girls because, I am not too masculine, I like romantic comedies, hate action movies, watch anime, and does not really have any vices. I am the type of person who is afraid of girls because they will remember their first impression of you, and that is the one thing about you that they will never forget.

3. Girls and Boys

     Females are a kind of human being which are far more complex and sophisticated than the ones called males. Girls usually get mad at awfully little things, but are unforgiving, for example her reply for “I’m sorry” is k, then walks away.Boys get happy at awfully little things like a 50 peso bill, but forgive easily, too easily in fact that even if they are still mad they say that it is ok already. When boys are mad at something they usually do the distraction method, wherein they try to distract themselves to forget whatever it is that they are mad about, unlike women where they do the open to other girls method, wherein they tell their other girl friends whatever it is that they are mad about, but it usually ends up as gossip.

               Girls make guys happy just by being with them, boys make girls happy just by buying something for them. Boys fall in love with looks that is why girls put on make-up, while girls fall in love with words, that is why boys tell lies. Boys don’t get jealous because they don’t trust girls, boys get jealous because they know exactly what the other boys are trying to do with girls. Boys hate to cry, they rarely ever do. But when a boy cries over a girl, I can guarantee that he loves that girl, because boys only cry when they lose something that they love as much as they love themselves. That is why when I lost my save state at pokemon fire red I was crying so much, because I lost something so important that day.

              As said by Tony Gaskins In “ man hasn’t passed the true test of manhood until he develops the self-control to be faithful to one woman. Any male can cheat, but only real men have what it takes to be faithful. Boys be careful around girls, you might not know that girls are more sensitive than you will, but boys just cant bring their emotions out in words that is why most of the people who suicide are males. Girls take good care of boys, boys have feelings too.

2. Things I like

                    
       The things I like are very simple. The things that make me happy are the things that I like the most, Especially my family and friends. I love to draw, mainly because it brings out my creative side, and express my emotions. I like watching anime and movies, mainly in the romantic comedy category because it really puts my mind in a different state of thinking, I start thinking about things that barely happens in real life.
 
  
 I like listening to music, I only like listening to love songs and other songs with really deep meanings, because I hate songs without good lyrics, like techno and mostly anything most teens play, especially songs about butts. I like being in school, for some reason there is this distinct feeling I get when I am in school, something I never feel at home or anywhere else, maybe a thirst for fun, or just wacky things I do with my friends really hype me up and keep my blood pumping for excitement. I love video games, just because it is very time consuming and addicting at the same time, it keeps me very entertained for hours, especially if you can play with your friends, multi-players are the real deal for me just because enjoying them with real people makes you feel less lonely, just because all your shyness will be gone because you are not really talking to them face to face and just have a friendly game, so it is like having fun and getting new friends at the same time. I like Girls a lot, but girls seem to not like me, because most girls like bad boys, and I am the opposite of a bad boy. I usually call it sight seeing or window shopping when it comes to girls. I am Joshua Spark Cruz and these are the things I like.